It was so easy to be creative in college. There were more musical outlets than I could handle and they were all just a few steps from my apartment. Whatever I felt I needed – a little piano playing, some solo clarinet in a practice room, classical wind ensemble, loud and fun pep band – I could have. Being an art major, I was making more art than I could handle! I etched, sketched, and printed during the day and let myself into the darkroom to develop at night. If I wasn’t actively making art, I was studying it in art history. Ancient art, renaissance art, modern art, you name it. I was developing and installing (my own) gallery shows, reflecting on myself as and artist and writing personal statements, and playing baritone hours a week.
Now? Now, I struggle to do anything creative and it really weighs on me. I have an unopened box of charcoal and large paper pad I bought 2 years ago, with the intention of taking some figure drawing classes. My DSLR has dust on it and a dead battery. I haven’t set foot in a darkroom in 3 years. Luckily, I did find the Austin Civic Wind Ensemble which eases my need for music performance.
I promise, this sad creativity rant has a purpose. In a desperate attempt to up my creativity, I bought a journal at the start of the new year. I’ve glued in some photos I like and have written a few things, but I just can’t get into it. Does keeping a creative journal take practice? I want it to be messy and crazy, like creativity vomit. I want to collage, watercolor, write, sharpie, sketch, and scrapbook. At the same time, I’m afraid of “messing it up.” Whatever that means. I think I’ll try and stick with it, even though I feel like I’ve already messed it up. If art taught me one thing, it’s that working a piece over and over again will improve it. So maybe I’ll just cover up things I don’t like in the journal with new things. We’ll see.
Below are some amazing moleskines I’ve see on Tumblr.
Does anyone have any recommendations for journaling? I’d love to see examples and hear your advice. Also, how do you stay creative in your adult life?